Been a while since I last wrote something...
Seldom have I reveal my true thoughts, true feelings here.This may be a suitable time.
Have been feeling down recently.Being a born pessimist, this is the hardest period of my life so far.My world seems to crumble on all fronts.Everything seems to work against me.In fact, I'm standing on the thin red line,trying hard not to fall into depression.Meanwhile,I've been spending this difficult period reflecting on myself,on life,appreciating every single thing that exists in this world. Hope I can pull through this period.
Friends who knew what happened to me, more or less, have been giving me encouragement,providing the support I need to feed on, showing me the direction of hope.I'm really appreciative of these friends who provided me a candle in my darkest moments.Among them, Mike,gave me much insights and thoughts which provocated my mind.Really thankful for this friend of over 15 years.
In addition, some others like Z,Rick,Meng and even my long-lost friend since sec sch,Shaofa, even though they do not really knew what I'm going through, the fact that they spent valuable time with me during this period is enough for me.
Thanks, pals.
On the contrary, there are some who failed even as friends. Someone close, or once close, did nothing for me.Even though they are one of the first to know my situation, they are the last to render any help.Or rather, never offer any support.Not a single call,not to mention meeting, to ask about my well-being.These are the people who are more interested in their own surrounding,blinded by their own interests, and will probably remember my existence when they need me.Somehow,in such a short space of time,we became strangers.
DO I NEED THEM?
No.
I will shoulder on.I will fight on.I will prove that YOU NEED ME MORE THAN I NEED YOU!
"虚寒问暖,雪中送炭"
Which part did you fulfilled,"friend"?
Thanks,everyone who lend me a pillar to lean on.You know who you are. I owed you one.
患难见真情,日久见人心.